
I am a bit in love with this man and his lone blue eye

She seems a bit more painterly than usual...
The more focused and productive I become the louder the internal opposition is.
The more I like what I am doing, the more the chorus says "that couldn't possibly be so, how would you know if it's good?".
Leading the pack is the voice who says: "Who do you think you are?"
When someone asks me "what kind of art do you make?" I do not know what to say. I have taken to calling my work illustration, because it's a place to latch onto.
I feel like I do belong in a place, and that is the place of the "outsider artist". These are artists who for the most part are apart from the art world. They make their work for joy, and in many cases in devotion to their God.
I know this is the right place for me because when I dwell there I feel no internal opposition to "making" and "working".
So when the voice says "Who do you think you are?" and I say honestly "I'm the person who draws and paints for the joy of it, I'm the person who will never color in the turtle to please the teacher, and I am the person who draws and paints for myself..." then things calm down, and I can get to work.